My mind’s kind of been in a dark ass place the past few years. I guess that’ll kind of happen when people close to you start dropping like flies. It might have been a combination of the company I’ve kept, rotten fucking luck or fate just deciding that their time was up, but nonetheless, it still sucks to lose someone. It’s also not the sort of thing that gets easier to deal with as it keeps happening. A lot of people think they can choose to die, but I truly believe that death chooses you. That’s why it happens the way it does. I’ve spent my twenties dealing with loss in the worst possible fucking way. I’m not entirely sure I’ll ever grant anyone full access to my dark side and the secrets that come with it, but I think I’d like to be better about it. So here’s Mickey Avalon’s “Friends & Lovers” to help me give my dark little adieu to reckless, dangerous and destructive grieving. If not permanently, at least for now. RIP all my friends, lovers and family members I’ve lost over the years. |
